lucky boo!

it's been awhile since my last post..and right now inis na inis pa din ako..hindi ko alam kung malas ba ko or talagang naiinis lang ako sa mga nangyayari sa buhay ko..masaya naman ako..lalo na ngayon may trabaho na ko mapagbubuhusan ko ng lakas..nagiisip kasi ako ng ipopost..but i guess this will be one of my unforgettable post..mababaw lang naman ang nangyari pero i don't think magiging ok ang lahat ng ganun ganun na lang..
they say love is blind..but there are some things that is not blind..here it goes..i received a text from my bestfriend who happpens to be a guy..yes a guy bestfriend who i consider very close to me..hindi na kailangan ng usap para maintindihan namin ang nangyayari sa bawat isa sa amin..wala kameng nagiging problema until he texted me..may girlfriend na daw sya..i just replied wow talaga?(although alam ko meron na nga!)whose the lucky girl i said,he replied ok lang naman sa inyo ni bok (my husband) na kame na ni (girl's name!)....oh shit i replied..tell me your joking..tell me she's not the girl i thought she is i answered!then he replied sya nga!OMG!what the hell is happening to my bestfriend?akala ko ok na sila ng friend namin..akala ko yung isang friend namin ang sasabihin nyang girlfriend nya..pero bilog ata talaga ang mundo..
what i just replied to make the long story short is this "whatever it is that will make you happy i'm always at your side!and if something came up and if anything goes wrong,don't tell me that i didn't remind you!"it really hurt me because one of the person i consider as one of the most important person in my life is so love blinded!
honestly,sa dinami dami ng babae bakit sya pa?FYI para maintindihan ng magbabasa nito the girl i'm telling happens to be a friend of mine who used me..lets just say i considered her a friend because that's what i know and who also happens to be my husband's ex-girlfriend!sa iba aakalain na kaya ako nagkakaganito kasi "ex-girlfriend nga sya"but that's not the real reason..tapos na sila bago pa naging kame ng husband ko..she told me before sila pa lang ng husband ko (i never thought na magiging kame ng husband ko that time!) sinabi nya sa akin na may crush sya sa bestfriend ko..i thought it was just a joke..pero yun na nga..then hanggang sa nagbreak sila ng husband ko and naging bestfriend sya ng brother ng bestfriend ko..siguro nakahalata sya that time na naiinis ako sa kanya..weeks later hindi na ko kinakausap ng bestfriend ko..even his brother yun pala kung anu-ano na sinasabi nya behind my back..the rest hindi ko na ikukuwento..pero ok lang wala naman akong problema..lumayo na lang ako and naging busy na din naman ako sa work..
right now kung ano man ang feeling ko sa relationship nila ng bestfriend ko,hindi na importante..ang mahalaga maging masaya ang bestfriend ko..and hoping na maging last na sya!whatever happens in the past,,past na yun eh wala na magagawa!sana wag na lang maulit ang nangyari,,naisip ko din baka nagbago na sya..hindi ko naman masasabi eh..sabi ng ibang barkada namin mabait daw sya..so,sana totoo..pero wag aasahan ng barkada namin na magiging ok kame agad agad..sana maintindihan mo bes..i'm happy for you it's your choice and i respect it,,don't worry everything's gonna be fine with me..in time it will happen.time heals its wounds..but i guess,this isn't the time yet...i totally FORGIVE but i don't really FORGET.

nothing more nothing less!

i got this message in tristan's cafe forum!how true!check it out!

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.
Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be.
Slower is better.
Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.
If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve
then heck no, you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat afriend.
Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.
Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself
a year later for staying when things are not better.
The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.
He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, Why would he treat you
any differently?Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.
If something bothers you, speak up.

Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.
You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within.
Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...even if
he has more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god.
He is a man, nothing more nothing less.

formidable ella,fleet street!

i was watching tv..sabi ng hubby ko..gusto daw nya tumaya..yes nangangarera sya..one of his hobbies aside from drinking,playstation,chatting and her kabit mc xrm110!hehe i don't give a damn on this matter..hindi naman sya addict and sya lang ang naasahan ko sa lahat food,shopping,grocery,daughter namin etc.;kahit na ba may nakukuha ako sa family ko or galing sa sis ko iba pa din yung sa hubby ko..pero kanina gusto ko kumontra..wala na nga kame extra money gusto pa nya tumaya ano ba naman yun?dadagdagan pa nung tungkol sa chat..hay buhay parang life..pero ok lang..hindi ko na nga kinontra xe gusto nya..partida umiinom pa sya..sinusulit ang weekend..2 days xe sya walang pasok..sayang naman kung sisirain ko minsan na lang sya mawalan ng pasok..eh sa work nya dayoff lang walang pasok..pag holidays hindi pwede umabsent unless dayoff..yun na nga habang ginagawa ko to..pagbalik nya inabot nya ang pera 2thousand..nanalo sya sa taya nyang 100.

night-out!

a few weeks ago nagpunta kame sa padi's point..kadarating palang namin nagulat ako sa mga tao..nakakatawa parang ngaun lang nakapasok ng bar..hehe hindi naman sa nanglalait pero ewan ko ba..wala naman ako masabi sa place..clean and well-maintained!kahit na hindi ganun kagaling ang performing band that night,,i could say we enjoyed..sayawan to the max kahit na hindi sumayaw hubby ko..hehehe nagbutas ba naman ng bangko..hahahaha nahihiya ipakita ang dance moves..
nung nandun kame sa dancefloor..biglang may sumanggi saken,nung una deadma ko xe baka hindi sinasadya and gusto lang sakupin yung buong dancefloor..hehe pero teka,hindi pa ganun kadami ang nagsasayaw..lumingon ako and i saw 4 girls dancing like a bitch..hehe ayun and biglang may bumatok saken akala siguro hindi ko nakita..sa asar ko gumanti ako..i pretended na hindi ko sila napansin..pero nilingon ko ulit and they stare like cats..hahahaha away ata ang gusto..well,hindi ko sila uurungan..hehe pero wala namang ganung nangyari..saka hindi ko naman hahayaang magkahilahan ng buhok noh mahirap na baka palabasin kame ng bouncer and ung first time namin gumimick with my dabarkads maging last time..at mauwi pa sa dating tambayan..dito sa sulu..at baka madala pa or hindi na maulit..hehe

YES!

i received a message from one of my marce last week..and this has caught my attention and stopped me from what i'm doing.. "giving up is definitely a sign of of cowardness..but if staying means too much burden, i guess quitting can be another story.."akala ko pa nung una hubby ko nagtext..pero napahinto talaga ako sa ginagawa ko..minsan may naiisip ako na ayoko na..hindi lang sa buhay mag-asawa kahit sa family (bothsides!)
sa family ng husband ko nahihirapan ako makisama xe minsan akala ko ok na.ayoko xe ng paulit ulit..nasabi na kanina sasabihin na naman ulit..kung minsan nga naman talaga..hehe sa side ko naman..puro utang juice ko buti na lang andun sis ko to help..lalo n akung wala talaga kame..hehe hay pero naisip ko..iisa pa lang to sa problema..wala namang problem na hindi nasosolve..marami pang dadating wag lang sana dumating sa point na mag-QUIT ako..

please lang!

hindi lahat ng tao perfect hindi lahat ng bagay tama yan ang mapapatunayan ko..pero hangga't maari gagawa ka ng paraan para yung bagay na yun maging tama at yung tao maging perfect kahit paano..even my relationship with my husband..hindi din ganun ka-perfect pero masaya..

ang dami xe nangyari na hindi ko maintindihan,,gumawa ako ng paraan para mapabuti ang isang taong malapit saken..kasama sa lahat ng bagay..close nga kumbaga..pero sabi nga hindi mo mapagbabago ang isang tao na ayaw magbago..hahahaha ewan ko ba?lagi ko na lang iniisip..hayaan ko na lang sya sa gusto nyang gawin..i was advised then na wag pansinin para wala ng gulo..pero ang galing gumawa ng storya..please lang ayoko na..wag na sana madagdagan ang problema..
i was with my sister kanina..nagopen ako sa kanya about the issue,,nagtaka din sya at naging ganun ang situation namin..of all people pa daw ba!people around us knew kung gaano kame kaclose ng sister ko and how we respect each other..that's how i treat the other person i'm talking about..sabi ko nga..wala ng magbabago..wag na lang magusap,deadmahin na lang lahat..mas may pinagaralan ako sa kanya..mahaba pasensya ko..pero may hangganan ang lahat..

hanggang kailan?

last night, i had a major arguement with my husband..grabe,as in gusto ko ng umuwi sa bahay namin dalin lahat ng gamit ko..isasama ko anak namin at hindi na nya kame makikita..para sa akin hindi nya ko pinakinggan..or maybe,he's not listening at all..ilang beses ko na ba sya nahuli na hindi nakikinig saken?bakit pa kame magsasama?..kapag may sinabi ako hindi sya nakikinig..madalas pa deadma..hindi naman ako ako pinanganak sa mundong to na magmukhang tanga!nahihirapan ako sa situation namin..sa kapatid nya,babae,sa trabaho,sa bahay,sa pagaasikaso sa anak namin,gastos,etc..pero mahal na mahal ko sya and ayokong maghiwalay kame..kelan kaya nya ko maiintindihan?kelan nya ko pakikinggan?bakit kailangan ako lang ang magsacrifice?

then i realize,marami din naman sya iniisip..hindi lang naman samen ng anak nya kailangan umikot mundo nya..and siguro tama lang na wag na ko magalit sa kanya,hindi naman magbabago ang mga nangyari..hindi na mababalik ang mga kasalanan nya..and dito ko naapply yung quote from noreen "if letting go becomes less painful than holding on,then that's the time to let go!" diba?ganun talaga!kapag nangyari yun hihiwalayan ko asawa ko..may hangganan man nga ang lahat ng sacrifice ko,but leaving your husband is not the answer.isipin ko na lang,ako lang ang asawa nya mahal nya ko and hindi na magbabago yun!(sabi nya!)

~ thanks noreen for the wonderful quote!-mhiko

tagalog movies!

mahilig ako sa tagalog movies..action,comedy,romance,drama lahat..wala akong pinipiling artista basta bago panonoorin ko!ewan ko ba..sabi nga sa akin baduy daw pero i'm happy..mababaw lang naman kaligayahan ko..and sabi ko nga frustrated writer ako and ang maging writer sa isang movie is one of my biggest dream..one of my favorite tagalog movie is one more chance..staring john lloyd cruz and bea alonzo..and to be honest..dito ko lang naapreciate ang loveteam nila..asa abs pa ako ayoko ng loveteam nila..i was actually looking forward to john lloyd and kaye..for me xe mas maganda loveteam nila or sana hindi si bea..pero sa one more chance i fully accepted the fact..bea got talent!

FINALLY!

it's been a long time since i finally did it.. yes sa tinagal tagal ng panahon..ngayon lang ako nagsulat..although i admit i am a frustrated writer..paano may hiya factor ako..pero for the years na sinayang ko,babawi ako..

my life started with twists and turns well,sino ba namang hindi?wala namang perfect sa mundong to noh..when i was in my younger years feeling ko walang kulang,i have a supporting parents,loving sister and a makulit brother..sabi ko pa parang walang saysay ang buhay..masyadong perfect,,sabay sabay kumain..nagaaral ako sa private school..lahat ng gusto ko meron ako or nakukuha ko..parang walang mangyayaring hindi maganda..until i met someone in my highschool days,isang guy maitim,kulot ang hair,etc..to make the long story short,sya daw ang tatay ko..syempre nawindang ang lola nyo that time..aba!gusto ko ngang may mangyari sa buhay ko pero hindi naman ganito..pero wala ng magagawa..yun na un eh..paguwi ko i confronted my mom and told me it's true..and that's when i realize every person's life is not PERFECT!